Mr. Bobby & Mr. Gucci <3

Sunday, August 31, 2008

10:39 PM

hello again.

stupid thompson gave me a hug cause he thought that i m leaving cathay and work in GV. =D well, at least this prove that he treat me as one of his friends. (:

sat work back counter. (: wah, did delivery. was uber fun and uber tiring. walk to and fro and then pop popcorn and all. it was really great huh! a really fun day which is kinda hard to forget.

"love aint like bouncing bball."

"friendship aint like bouncing bball."

& you wont get what u reap too.

&the beauty.

12:15 PM

OMG! i m so gonna rot till death. )= well, not all can understand how i feel afterall. as in, towards my rotting. prolly i should just hope that bugs, flies and all wouldnt come to me when i rot. cause thats so miserable, body being savour by them or what.

basically, i m feeling kinda emo now cause i just read FENG JOOYU's blog. i didnt know she was feeling emo during chalet. but well, she is. (as stated in her blog) "Never judge a book by its cover"; seems so true yet so much cruetly contain inside that sentence.

if only.. you gone through what i had gone through before, you might be Esther no. 2 (= sometimes, even the thoughts of it, scare the shit out of me. prolly it become a kind of phobia a phobia which is kept in the dark; a phobia which is nv shown from my face expression; a phobia which is none will expect me to have it; a kind of phobia which make me become like this; a phobia which make me so __________________;

oh ya. i have received my chalet picture. thanks shiyingg for it. (= but aww, it took me 3 - 5 hours to download it. and i must say, EI0805 chalet is awesome!!!! really totally indulge myself with the fun we all had. i guess, i m really in love with my EI0805. hope that we will stay like this till the end of year 3. (= but the fact is that, i have to stand seeing so many xl faces. LOL!

sometimes, i really hate myself. i want A but yet i wanted B too. and its so impossible to merge them together. i did something real bad and i dont want to blog it out. it only reflect my bad points if i blog it out. HAHAHA!

and uhm uhm uhm, SHOULD I FLOOD MYSELF WORKING AT CATHAY FROM 8-15 SEPT? like work everyday. should i? sometimes i wonder..............................

&the beauty.

12:45 AM

一天一天,
贴近你的心,
你开心我关心.
一点一滴,
我都能感应,
你是我最美的相信.

-you make me so in love. (=

i m leading my life happily. (=
being emo at times to stable my life abit.
life aint all about happiness;
you need some emo-ness in order to enhance ur happiness.

went hub and watched meet dave with darling wangzhi.
actually watching 4bia but story 1 totally freak us off so we went into meet dave instead.
had a good laugh. (:

saw sebastian while waiting.
that slacker!
-_________-
as usual, he shake his head upon seeing me.
and vice versa.

my life is so busy nowadays. (=
aint busy with cathay but somethings else.
you know, they know, everyone know except catahy.
LOL!
i m being lame.

msn-ed with cindy, jooyu, zhiyong, julia and more.
and i simply love them. (=
even if zhiyong got xialan face.

oh.
not forgetting, kick boxing starting at 1sept.
SO FAST!
buck up, ESTHER LIANG.

aim in life:
1) to be rich -well, prolly not rich but got stable income of like 600$ monthly to spend. (=
2) excel in kick boxing - well, this seeems hard and unreachable. )=
3) ticklish to be STRONG.
4) to own bobby once again.
5) find a guy which i m willing to forsake certain things for him - this is even harder. Cause, good guy are hard to come by.
6) to have more time for my friends!!! xing, sen, cindy, julia, qinmei, qg, zy, jy, zy and MORE! and not forgetting yeewen lar. (=
7) TO EXCEL IN BEING HAPPY 'N' EMO.

the feeling of love;
the taste of love;
i nv once had before.
will you be the one to bring me there?
will you be the one whom i will forsake earning $ just to spend my day with you?
prolly. prehaps. maybe. (=

&the beauty.

1:40 AM

i love EI0805! chalet was really great. even though, ALL I HAD WAS CHICKEN WING. (:

i just went for the BBQ with the purpose of eating. as usual, greedy me. (: and i m so NOT prepare to stay over night but somehow, i ton there. xD and i didnt regret.

reached there at ard 8pm. went mad and hugged everyone. wow, seriously miss them okay. wished qg&sj happy bday(YTD). thn had my chicken wing. oh ya, saw Mr. Bong and friend. (: and Mr. Bong brought us tibits. like one week supply. LOL! and Miss lee treated us pizza hut on day 1 which i missed out. ): then slack, eat and talk cock. and i guess EI0805 really rawk and i really love them! then cindy, zy and su went ntuc and buy whipped cream so that they can smash on qg&sj's face. and they are professional okay! they did it w/o mych ppl notice and ppoor me lar.. so innocent and got whipped cream on my face. thanks to qg la! hes jealous that i m clean and thus, take his face whipped cream and smash on my face. and grr, i get DIRTY! thn ard later on, Mr soo came and he brought us BEER. muhahahahaha. and of coz, some of us drink it and yes, SOMETHING DID HAPPENED! but must keep it low profile. (: so aint gonna blog it out. but anyway, Mr. soo keep giving us advice on relationship. i keep saying that must be financial stable then can have a long and good realtionship but Mr. soo disagree! but anyway, different people got different point of view :) and Mr Soo praised me! XD thn Mr. Soo went home ard 2am. then hugged him and bid goodbye. (: oh ya, before i forget, JUNYI GAVE ME A RIDE ON HIS BIKE. omg. cool man. hahahaa! and i so love it. hahaha! play mahjong and i win $3! muahahahaha. and serene, jy, yl and ted playing dai dee in the room and their forbid was being naked. and ended up, yl went naked. ted went half naked. jy and serene went inside naked. uer stupid. LOL! and more which i m lazy to type but somehow, i really enjoyed myself. (:

the last person i wana fall in love with;

is you. )=

pls, DONT.

cause ur horoscope is ***** which i hate it.

&the beauty.

12:48 PM

uber sad. )=

ytd went back to sch to take c maths paper. T_T totally remind me of a maths paper. those bad memories i had.... those hardship i gone thru and all..... and yet, i have to endure all this again. ._. but well, at least i gotta b4 for my amaths for O's. (: and that kinda make me happy.

asshole chensj say that i, him, qg and jy is zone 3. so qg, sj and i went into zone 3 and we sit down. and the position aint right too. i was sitting in front of sj when i should be sitting behind qg. then in the end, we sat at the wrong seats. was uber embarrassing. so went to our correct sitting and i even took away the qns paper which is not mean for me. then when i was about to sit down, they came and asked me to return. -___- then start doing and getting freaking bored. didnt really know how to do cause i didnt even study at all. i know i suck but who cares. (: went off at 2pm cause i didnt know how to do and i didnt want to stay in the hall and rot.

went amk hub and realise i got nothing to do at all. ._. so went up cathay and decided to catch movie. look at the closer timeslot, only journey available so went in to watch it. sat at the fourth row and in the middle. well, not thaat bad afterall. (: had cripsy chicken combo and dinosaur egg to accompany for the whole movie. and the best of all, it was all freeee. xD wheee!

dinner brought thai food from foodcourt and a e2max drink. AND I ACTUALLY REALISE TT THERES FREAKING GARLIC IN THE THAI FOOD LAR. knn can? )= and i swear i will nv eat that anymore. F-U-C-K. seriously, fuck.

and then, Mr. James close my counter and i have shortage of $26.16! ): due to the free smart dollar. thn sign shortage form. very sadddddddddddddddddddd okay!

went to watch 12 lotus after work with yeewen. XD the main lead is so handsome lar. x.x geez. then Mr. Glen is a good guy. he let us in to his cab so we wont have to pay alot. bleah!

so anyway! thats my very poor day. )=

&the beauty.

2:47 PM

notebook left with a battary lifespan of like, uhm, 24%. running really low and i guess after blogging, i have to go off to work.

ytd went for dinner at my dad's company. pan pacific hotel. ._. the dinner completely suck. sis dint allow me to drink orange juice cause she concluded i have alrdy drink 1.5litres of it. so she got me to drink chinese tea instead. awwwwww! then went to the toilet, one of the staff ask if we are sister and we give that "we look alike meh?" kinda look. then took cab home. and i find it cheap. just 13.80$ from city hall to khatib. at least, its not what i expected like 20$++. hahahaha! home and i fall asleep immediately. guess i m really tired... ))=

i want to earn big money. (:

my future bf mustn be poor.

not saying that he will be paying my share but he must be able to pay his own share if i decided to dine at pepper lunch or what.

bleah.

off to make $. xD

&the beauty.

2:10 AM

-dont fall in love with a flirt, the one losing out is YOU.

kick boxing goona resume at sep 1.
ahh, wonder if i get to see him or not.
=X
and not forgetting, my shorts. (:
cool man!

til the end of the world,

my world stil revovles ard yours.

even if u had alrdy DIE.

&the beauty.

2:13 PM

" 与其说对不起，到不如想办法加油。=D "

i realise, since changes has been make alrdy, i shouldnt try to salavage it. (:
its okay, its alright.
i m stilll happy with my current life.

EI0805 chalet coming soon!
xD
excitedddddddd~
<3 EI0805.

&the beauty.

2:45 PM

BULLSHIT.

lets see what ESTHER means;

E : You like to play with cat.

S : Fuckin crazy.

T : Awesome kisser.

H : You have a very good personality and good looks.

E : You like to play with cat.

R : You're loyal to those you love.

this is so freaking F-A-K-E.

cause;

i hate cat. i always bully them! cause they always hurt my lil precious bobby so i am just helping poor bobby to revenge. aint black heart. to hell with those cats.
and upon reading the first meaning, it totally turn me off.
so i guess, this predicted is so freaking eeeeeeeeew.

my friend for both secondary and poly. [:

&the beauty.

12:51 PM

"Last christmas, i gave u my heart but the very next day, you gave it away.
This years to save me from tears, i give it to someone special. "

T-I-R-E-D.
S-H-A-G.

cant wait for 23aug. (:
i m so gonna see so many faces.
like DAREN CHAN, KEITH AND ALL.
& not forgetting the main purpose of earning my $50 for just working for 4 hours or 6 hours.
basically, i love daren chan la! xD

11 nov 2011 gonna be a big day for me! (:

CAUSE, ITS A DOUBLE TRIPLE 11.

we will get to know each other if fate allow. (:

kick box kick box kick box~

&the beauty.

1:03 AM

its 104am now.
tmr i got my badminton date at like 11am.
so why aint in bed?

after so long, i tears means nothing alrdy.
but i just terribly teared.
):
after so long, i still miss him terribly.
hes my everything.
now that hes gone, i have nothing much left with me.
my emotional, my happiness, all gone with him.
if tears can bring him back, i dont mind crying til i went blind.
but i cry till no more tears left within me alrdy yet he aint back.

fine.
i shall put all my love in guccci instead. (:

&the beauty.

3:48 PM

lack of time?
or was it lack of time management?

-prolly this kind of thing will nv happpen to me. cause i know myself too well.

&the beauty.

1:41 PM

test 1:

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

test 2: The real you

Here is the analysis:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

test 3: What's your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

do you test here if you wan. (=
CLICK HERE LA!

being bored so just try doing those quiz.
i cant even understand myself, so what make this quiz able to?
i wonder....
seriously wondering.....
well, whatever it is, i m happy with my life.
my friends are limited, i m always with the same old gang.
but who cares?
i dont need a huge social life but prolly what i ever need was:
Mr. Bobby. (= & not forgetting my new member, Mr. Gucci.

i m going work soon soon soon!
goodbyee earthlings.

&the beauty.

4:10 AM

"prolly i just suck. prolly it doesnt matter anymore. prolly i m just too used to it. bro, we shall be. -even if it hurts."

happy birthday, singapore. (=
happy birthday, dearest Melvan Ong Jian Loooooong. (=
sincerely, wish u have the best luck ahead.
and i will always be there whenever u need me, okay?
well, and no forgetting, all the best to you and headquarter.
and pls grow more mature and stop questioning me stupid qns like who i like!
hehehe!
all the best, stupid pig.

i saw him this morning when i m on the way to NYP. (=
i have a feeling that hes from health science.
and i really wonder why!
one thing i am kinda sure about is he aint from IT or enginnering.
cause he dont look like one.
&& sad to say, but he speak english.
time to brush up my english.
=D

work as usual.
but today was so boring. )=

i wana KUN alrdy la!
take care. (:

&the beauty.

11:32 PM

HELLO!

Mervin rocks so much.
WHY?
cause he helped me to change my:
- Msn Display Picture to : DINOSAUR aka kong long
-Msn PM to : Mervin is the pathway to happiness.

and he did that when i m helping him to do his Database!
so much for my kindnesssss!
and i didnt realise my display pic till daren tell me about it.
-______-
and now, i m so lazy to change it back to my real face.
H-A-H-A-H-A-H-A-H-A.

AND BTW, MERVIN LOOK LIKE THIS:
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TYPICAL HORSE FACE.
RIGHT? =D

=D
i m uber contended with my life now!
my very perfect life with everything even though i m always complaining!

so like, meet up with retard just now.
and we chat about alot of things.
and we wonder, sometimes why most people have to think twice before answering when people ask if they do have a bf/gf.
does this show that they didnt like their bf/gf or their bf/gf was a disguise? .__.
but however, i wouldnt know how to answer this qns if someone ask me.
but i will say yes w/o thinking if my Bf were to be some big shot. =X
but too bad.
so kinda fortunate to have no Bf currently. =D

guess sometimes retard and i really have the same thinking.
in terms when finding a Bf.
uber retard i guess.
sometimes its seems like we aint looking for a Bf, but looking for our future instead.
its not about being materalist or what but just, for the sake of future.
so i guess, money is really important uh?
at least to retard and i.
HAHAHA!

and the most retarded thing happened in amk hub just now.
which is being laughed non-stop by mud.
thanks to retard.
it goes like:
she wanna let me see a watch which she fancy but somehow, dont have and i point to that watch and ask if it is and her reaction was so huge and go like: YES YES BUT EH NO LA! thn a gang of muds came and did the same thing. and i cant help but to laugh constantly. and the mud walk away and so did us and when we walk past them, they did the same thing again. -___- thn we went to makan thn on the way home, we saw them again and as usual, they did the same reaction as retard. i was laughing again. then went to bus stop to wait for 853, we saw them AGAIN but they are in the bus and waving to us. LOLOLOLOLOL!
i bet u will laugh like hell if you were to be there.
& no doubt, retard is uber attention seeking.

home sweet home.
and yes, i m missing Mr. Bobby.
its a torture to walk pass that particular spot daily.
cause it hurts.
maybe i will learn to love when i know my kick boxing senior. =D
cause hes my prince charming.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

sorry if i didnt love u before.

i thot i did but apparently, i didnt.

cause i didnt think of u at all after that day.

and prolly thats why i can still talk to you.

cause all along, u are my friend.

&the beauty.

11:44 PM

just watch money not enough 2 & gave me alot of inspiration. (:

and what daren stated in his blog before, seems so true out of a sudden.

"Lots of people, want to ride with you in the limo, but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when the limo breaks down."

i guess different people got different point of view.

BUT BUT BUT,
happiness require money.
even for girls who DONT go for branded stuff.
dont you think tts so true?

imagine you are having ur first date, and ur Bf ask you to eat coffeeshop.
how will you feel?
i didnt say that coffeeshop aint nice but i bet u will have a thinkng tt hes gonna bring you to coffeeshop daily.
and this of cause, turns you off.
but obviously, i didnt say my every date mmust dine at pepper lunch tat kinda place.
and dine at coffeeshop with friends, are the best. =D

and theres still alot of examples i wana say out but i m afriad this would be kinda rude to others ppl. afterall, my blog is like open to everyone.

but well, girls, if u cant stand coffeeshop, dont look for guys who can only bring you to coffeeshop even if u like him.

and for guys, dont court a girl unless you are able to take care of her everything.

((=

money is still the only pathway to find ur happiness. ;D

&the beauty.

8:55 PM

HELLO!!! =D

aww, life has been great with pepper lunch around me! XD and no doubt, my new love is pepper lunch now. & yes, its kinda ex. i m just a student lar! )): but pepper lunch is really awesome!! geeez..

white is a nice guy thou he keep complaining about his 1.95$ chocolate which he gave me half meaning he give me smth which costs ard 1$. -_____- and he gave me a bottle of green tea but somehow i drink it even thou i dislike green tea. hahahahhahaha! prolly i m insane at tt moment. wish white can find his dream girl soon la. if not, he gonna complain ALOT.

15aug, my another buffet day. XD

are we selfish in nature or the surronding force us to be?

sometimes, i dont get how people think.

sometimes, i dont even get wat i m thinking.

sometimes, i wish that things will be even more simple.

if only, everything could be as simple as it seems to be.

i m losing confidence in myself.

can someone, direct me to the correct path?

everything is too late and i know it.

i aint smart and i know it.

wat hurt the most aint tt i aint smart but what ppl actually do.

wat shhld i do?

i dont have any confidence of being able to go sem2....

&the beauty.