Mr. Bobby & Mr. Gucci <3

Thursday, July 31, 2008

5:57 PM

would u be shock if i were to say i found my prince charming alrdy? XD hes always taking train from the jurong east side, but i m always from the marina bay side. i always take a second look if there's the jurong east side train when i alight at yck. sometimes when i m lucky, i get to see him. and this wil make my day. sound dumb right? but he always give me a special yet awkard feeling. *WHEE

seoul garden with poly mates are GREAT! xD gosh, i love them to bits. <3

m really tired. )x tue went kbox till like 5am -___- and morning went for my seoul. NO WONDER THUR I SELF-DECLARE HOLIDAY. HAHAHA!

fuck it lar.

i hate it when ppl act as thou they know me well but they dont.

ahhh!

i m just myself. i m just Esther Liang.

the lil miss bobdog.

&the beauty.

9:24 AM

just read dar's blog. hes getting uber emo. talking about the past and this make me wonder if he is talking about her. hmm! well, i dono what to comment but everyone should just carry on walking down. no use lingering or rather, indulge in the past cause the time wouldnt just stop for ur sake. u get wat i mean? but sometimes, when the night is getting darker, no doubt, it make people emo even more than usual. HAHA! shit me. being contradicting again. but oh well, thats life. we make mistake. we regret, we put the blame on ourself etc. happiness come from sadness. isnt it so true? XD

okay. he live in uhm, bishan? XD well, i seriously dono and my mindset is so naive that i thot he stay in bishan coz the mrt he took was "jurong east". so i told qm about it and she was like, "pls lar, not only bishan can. east side also what! heng is an example." but well, i saw him ytd while waiting for cai yan and all. :D i m like telling myself not to but well, obviously, i tried to peep then act like i m not and all. i saw him walking down the escalator and uhm, he is walking to my direction. (obviously, he aint gonna talk to me) tap out of the card and walk to NYP. all in my mind was, ahh, hes sooo kawaii. XD and i can feel that i m really shy at that point of time! then went to kick box and i he aint there. ))x BUT, in the end, he came for like 5minutes. looking so sweaty! lolololololololololololololololol. thn qm ask me if its tt guy and i say yes. geeeez. qm say hes is kinda cute. but why i feel tat qm is lying? ))x ok, maybe hes just cute in my eyes. XD

ok. i gonna go sch soon! XD
i love and miss all of u okay? :D

&the beauty.

4:23 AM

i m getting uber fat. uber knn. )=

but food temptation is so high lor! ._.

so i must kp running!
running chase those fats away! (=
yes, ESTHER LIANG!
i hope i can do it.

Mr. Gucci is a replacement of Mr. Bobby.
but as time pass by, i m loving Mr. Gucci more. =D
is that a good thing??

one fact about me.
i think guys who are slim and wear bermudas attracts my attention. XD and i dono why! muhahahaha but yea, i think they look greeeeeeeeeeeeat.

yawn! damn tired. )x
bye!

&the beauty.

9:49 PM

帅哥和美女!

&the beauty.

2:16 AM

today is a fun fun day! why? oh well, cause we got class presentation today and everyone wear formal to school and it was uber cool. =D somemore, we all cam-whore like dono what! and nebo tgt! whee! i love EI0805. so i gonna upload all the photo when chye yan send me! teeheehee. love them to bits!

as usual, qg they all went to pool again. -_____- and some went home. so only left with me, da ma, da niu, sy, susu, cl and sj to nebo. or rather, "neh-bu". (inside joke!) all ate fish&wedge except for me and da ma who ate beefy chesse dog meal. XD but well, chye yan look so tired! and i guess she must be really tired! poor girl. )= take care arh, my dear chye yan. thn we joke ard and all and it was really fun! then after neh-bu, we went home! so tired. and i fall asleep while playing my notebook.

talk about presentation. WOW! si da ma. keep making me laugh when i present. x.x so i guess my marks got pull down. )= thn after that, he came to me and he say, he dono why but see my face can make him laugh. -__________- super di siao la! thn his turn to present, i and chye yan went in front to di siao him. muhahahhahahha! and played CS when other group were presenting. i know its rude but iya, the timing all so correct. its like i went to sit beside yue xian thn the comp was on thn i saw maple but sch wireless doesnt allow us to play! thn asked him got what to play so he say CS so i thot of trying. and yea, see! its aint my fault. )= thn played CS. super retard, i tell you. hahaha! yes, i mean i m super retard. its like! yue xian ask me how many ppl i wana fight with so i say 5! wanted to say 1 can but abit ps so 5. thn guess wat weapon he allow those 5 ppl to use. -___________- KNIFE ONLY LOR! so he kp, dont need scare la! just go and shooot them. but still, i didnt manage to kill all 5. just 4! omg. but the process of me playing was super retard. ong yue xian and cheng yi keep lauging! roar. thn martin and da ma came and di siao my hair! WALAO!every morning make my hair so neat, in the end, also messy. BIG BIG SIGH..

and yes. I REWARDED MYSELF WITH ONE MORE BIG BLUE-BLACK. knn can? its like so wrong. everything is so wrong. i keep falling down. am i really that clumsy? and this time round, the blue-black is really huge! so like, i reach the classroom and i just: "welcome to the world of white and black. (: bla bla bla". thn put my laptop and my bag down and thn i fall down! stupid da ma was like, wah, wear until so nice yet fall down. )= i also don want! so abit hurtful but i decided to ignore it since i m alrdy used to it BUT BUT BUT... i start to emo when i got home. i take a look at it and i saw the huge blue-black. then went msn, saw andy pm was, offically missing u. so decided to di siao him thn told him about my blue-black and he didnt even show any sign of concern can? wwwwwhhat kiiiiiiind of brrrrro right? eeeeeeeeyer. hate him la! then fall asleep halfway. -____- thn wake up and msn again! my life is all about msn! all about notebook! all about food! all about Mr. bobby and Mr. gucci. anything else? NONONONO. (= i guess, i m stil unwilling to let anyone in yet. but well, when the time comes, eventually, i guess i will. isnt it?

ahh.
shouting out real loud.
WHY?
I M NOT TELLING YOU!
bleah.

&the beauty.

8:53 PM

boos. i added one more injury onto my leg ytd again. -__- i guess he gonna say i m fucking retard and clumsy. but well, i wouldnt tell him that also and like wat i say, we shall not contact until needed. =D it gonna hurts but it gonna drag more if i keep dragging u down and not letting u leave my world. but well, thats like what i say to myself a year ago or 2 year ago or what. x.x btw, i suck right?

well, html proj is completed! just a few more edit and ta-da! geez. and i gonna be really free alrdy! CHEEESE! and plus the fact tat holiday are comming soon, WELL, I THINK and i guess I M REALLY SUPER HAPPY!

finally can have time to go SUSHI TEI, seoul garden, pepper lunch and more. gosh, goona spend so much again. my money is all spend on fooood. .___. and whee, next sat rum&raisin with dom! HEHEHEHEHEHE.... well, can i be super rich? so i can dont work and still get to eat ex food. =D

oh my.. if my future bf ever see this post, i guess he gonna go zzz. HAHAHAHA! coz i will tell him i dont wan eat hawker center. i wan eat ajisen.. i wan eat nebo.. i wan eat this and that. HEHEHE! but well i m not tt extreme to the type whereby i dont eat hawker center.

i love fish! fish love me! =D can i marry a fisherman? geez. and i have like fish for both lunch and dinner ytd. and i guess i m really in love with fish.

okok. BYE!
<3

&the beauty.

3:47 AM

i just realise, kb passed away alrdy. )= well, althought we nv meet before but i always find u cute. XD but sigh, i always didnt have the confidence to meet you. afriad that u would find me weird looking and bla bla bla. now that u have passed away, i deeply regretted. )= rest in peace, msn friend.

working is always fun! XD took cab home with thompson, kenny and nurbilah. WHEE! had lots of fun with them! =D and one customer took number from me today but i didnt give. was so embarrasing. x.x oh ya! and i brought oreo chessecake home! =D and micheal gave me the panda bottle! LOVE IT SO MUCH K! but must beware! cant let anyone seeeeee. and ah kor leaving cathay soon. ]: gonaa misss him ALOT! seriously, alot! ): but i guess this life. wat can i do?

I M GETTING NBCB FAT LA! diet plan now. =D please dont tempt me with those food! (:

sigh sigh... alot of things happening nowadays. i hate to have emotional. i just wana say to you, even if what u say really did happen, i will keep my words and leave there and i swear i wouldnt like him back. ok? =D secondly, to you. i still cant forget you. i know it has been years and i shld have forget all about you but somehow, i couldnt. )= i hope we can stop contacting each other anymore. T_T cause i wana have a brand new life. i wana abandon my old life. thirdly, to another you. sorry if i did hurt you but please carry on ur life w/o me cause i know you can. the like u have for me aint strong at all. you know it. so please, face back reality.

ok. i m done with my emo paragraph. bbbbbbye!

&the beauty.

3:32 AM

yawn! change of blogskin once again! aww, i guess i must be really SIAN thus keep changing or should i say i change cause my mood is changing too? well, no specific reason for me to change my blogskin actually. i m just crapping. =D

in another 8 hrs time, i will be having my c# programming test yet here i am, doing my blogger. aww, ESTHER LIANG suck so much! well, c# is a confirm retake module for me. well, at least i get to retake and not drop out of school but somehow, i gonna miss EI0805 so much if i didnt get to be with them anymore. aww! T_T but well, what to do! i m a noob in programming. okok, just give in ur best shot and see what gonna happen. its not like, i didnt even learn at all! at least when i ask myself, i have something to fight back. =D

kenny sending me Always be my baby now! and if it aint nice, i gonna bash him. XD muhahahahhahahaha. lets seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee if i gonna bash him or not. LOL!

you cant see me; i m just trying to distance myself from reality.

&the beauty.

2:32 AM

nbcb. )= dont ask me why i swear but of coz i have my reason to swear. ahh, i m getting emo. dont ask me why i m getting emo coz u would think that i m uber retard to emo for tt retard reason. and i must adjust my mood back to normal as soon as possible if not tmr melvan ong meet me, he gonna label me as the real emo kid. LOL!

OK LAR! tell you why i emo now. 2 factors, or rather 3.
1) THE VENDING MACHINE CHEATED MY $3!! but $3 is small thing lar. the main problem was i m uber thirsty now! nbcb nbcb. find one day find someone go fuck the vending machine. )=
2) I REALISE TT ITS VERY SADDENING TO KNOW TT THE GUY U THOT WHO LOVE U DEEPLY ACTUALLY DONT. ok, i m watching love story and its the dono how many times i m watching it again but i still feel so emo!
3) i didnt know i actually would care tt much but however, it hurt. )= it seriously hurt alot as a friend. seriously..... can u at least treat me btr abit?

okok. ignore the third one. coz i guess he aint part of my emo-ness. and he isnt la!

hais..
vending machine, i hate you!
bbye. )=

&the beauty.

11:59 AM

pinic or doing project work? XD

listening to lecture or taking picture?

chicky and monkey or ESTHER cuter?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i m insane alrdy. coz project is taking away my precious brain cells and i dont have the time to nua at home and bla bla bla. my greatest wish is to nua at home for the rest of my life. XD isolent brat.

i guess i m done with blogging.

and ytd was a great great day! can i say the reason why? why? why? well, apparently, i bumped into him twice! XD and he stay near me. ahh! how perfect it is? it aint any crushh or what but i guess he attract my attention. XD saddening tt i cant mention who he is coz i don even know him but i know alot people that i know know him. )= so like, i cant mention much about him either. but happy that i bumped into him TWICE in a day. WHEEE*

byebye!
i love gucci (:

&the beauty.

8:57 PM

i m complaining that i m really busy yet i still have the time to blog. WOW. three cheerrs for me. XD not only blog but to change the skin as well. can i have six cheers now? (:

i m gonna chiong html soon soon soon!

and poly life suck.

project project and still project!

prolly RP is the place for me BUT BUT BUT, i m always late.

what should i do?

my love forever.

&the beauty.

4:28 AM

WOW! chiong project all the way today till 8pm i receieved a call from dom asking me if i wana catch hancock. well, kind off dont feel like but somehow, in the end i went to watch hancock. HAHA! i need a BREAK from my project. its killing my precious brain cells.

suwanno commented that GUCCI is kawaii. (: and uber funny. suwanno become GUCCI;s nanny. a d i guess GUCCI enjoy suwanno's compny cause he didnt really bite him that much and i can see suwanno LOVE gucci to bits and pieces.

prehaps, prolly and maybe u can catch hancock. its kinda niceeeeeeee but i dont watch tis kind of show. i watch it cause dom asked me to. -___-" and veejay is so nice. XD he gave me nebo pricing and free food. yum yum! love veejay! XD then pass yeewen 2 small cupcake. one for her and one for my ah kor. whee! but its uber sweet. bad for ah kor's health. ): shouldnt give him! ahh, regretted! )= went dom's hse there and slack after movie. well, dom live in mini condon and theres pool and bla bla bla. how i wish i stay there. so in the bus, we chatted. and i only rmb one sentence he say. so it goes like;

dom: u knw 1cm how much anot?

me: ya la *showing him the 1cm action*

dom: then u know 15cm?

me: i guess so. *slowly counting my 1cm to 15cm* -___-"

dom: roughly give me 15cm. and tts the length of my penis.

me: went insane. cant stop laughing.

dom: DONT THINK OF MY BABY's PENIS LA!

me: HA A HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

walao. damn funny can! cant stop laughing lor! thn cab home at ard 4am. uber tired! gonna sleep soon soon soon! XD

and thomPson, stop giving me retard face. LOL! u shld know what i mean. (:

okok. super tired! tmr choing project again? HMMM!

&the beauty.

1:04 AM

today comm skills talk about self-esteem. uhm, find it so true that looks is so important. theres a sentence saying that do not judge a book by its cover. however, its like we always judge a book by its cover. -____-"

so comm skills tacher ask us to write down what we are unhappy with and i wrrote,
1) smaller face
2) smaller nose
3) be super rich
4) to be SKINNY
but however, i still can accept how i look like now.

LOL. as in, i cant change anything what so no choice but to like.

talking about credit card.. i told swuanno i wana make the citibank credit card as it look nice so everyone conclude that i like handsome guy. -_____-" well.. towards this sentence, even i, mysef also dono if i do like handsome guy or not. HMMMM! but well, eug say in this world, its either looks or money. and daren and i both think single life are the best. (:

tireeeeeeeeed like shithead!
and i wana go kickbox.
i really do!
cause theres percentage that i get to see my eye candy. (:
well, basicaly i only get to see him IF i go south canteen eat but i m always in north.
))x

okok. slp slp slp slp slp slp slp.
bye fucker. =p

&the beauty.

2:39 PM

NEBO WITH POLY FRIEND SOON! XD
& i love to abuse sjchen!

&the beauty.

1:25 AM

i feel that i m a bitch now. well, what to say? but i brought this upon myself. i m totally speechlessssssssssss. i really hate myself now.

work was really GREAT. (:
cause OHYONGLIANG workingggggg today and his c2 while i am c1!
hehehhehehe! life is always great with OYL and FYW. ((:
but today shortage $0.90 )=
cause of OYL lar! sickening asshole. order staff meal from me yet dont wan pay! only pay $2!
hahaha! no lar. i volunteer to help him pay the rest. XD
i m niceee to him right? XD
then we took cab home and he, OYL, help me close my cab door.
which make FYW really jealous.
muahhahahahaa!
and more which i m really lazy to type it out but somehow, working is great! XD

sometimes when u lose smth which u tresure the most,

nothing else matter anymore.

i guess, somehow, my heart is only keep for bobby.

&the beauty.

10:24 PM

well.. i dono what to say except for sorry. i know i hurt u deeply. all the problem just lies with me. me, me and still me. i think and feel tat i m a bitch. u are great, really great but i just couldnt accept it. i learn the hard way before. i will never like someone that much anymore. deep down in my heart, bobby still exist. u may find it crap but well, i swear i love bobby alot. no one can ever replace him lar! sorry boy. ]: i guess, i suck big time and i am such a bitch.

nbcb.
life suck lar.
BB!

&the beauty.

12:26 AM

believe it or not,
i still love Mr. BOB.

i still do miss him...
i still do wana hug him...
i still do think of dying...

i aint crying anymore cause,
tears cant describle how wreck i feel;

i aint talking about him tt much cause,
i m trying real hard to forget him.

he taught me how to love him
but i have to teach myself how to stop loving him.

i can forsake anything just for him to be by my side but even if i forsake, he wouldnt be by my side. reality is cruel. i hate reality. )):

emo post, i know.
sorry. ):

&the beauty.

3:52 AM

WOW.. totally shag nowadys. pls DONT ask me why cause i cant freaking give u an aanswer why am i so freaking shag. ): but i m like, dozing off no matter where i am. but hey, at least i didnt like, uhm, walk while sleeping. thats a compliment for myself. XD ohhhhh, aint thick skin okay! but well, if u put urself in my shoe, u would think tt its a compliment also.

work is getting more and more SIAN! well, actually i really enjoy working at amk cathay. (: cause i think people there are nice. nice in a sense that they are funny. XD people like CHRISTOPHER, thomson, kenny, yeewen, yongliang and bla bla bla. well but somehow, kinda feel like quitting. Reason was because i m really tired.. tired to the extent whereby i think i can fall asleep even when walking S-O-O-N. and the thing that is holding me back was, i cant bear to leave my friend there. ): i dono why but i just dont ber to leave them. but i just dont bear to. sian arh! i seriously dono if i shld quit or not. YAWN.

ok then as for NYP, its getting more and more no life. i always go to school for the sake of freaking attendence. and m c# is dying. iya! blame myself lor. its my own faulit. its so my own fault. always msn -____- i freaking hate msn la! T_T temptation is too high for me to resist it. XD

sian.
i still cant forget..
i really cant..
i still cant forget the day bob pass away...
i m actually, still awaiting for his reutrn. ):
i know i m dumb but reality is cruel. i dont minbd staying in my thoughts.
bob teaches me whats love but now tt he leave, i find it really hard to love someone that much.
in short, i m getting more and more no emotion.
HAHAHA!
):
when can i even stop living?
ZZZ!

&the beauty.

11:19 PM

this is for DAREN CHAN aka BF. XD

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
cause ure kaopei. HAHAHA! like seriously. talking so loud and sitting behind me with keith and is from NCC. and fall in love with gerladine/april? eh, i forget and thats how i know you. pls dont think that i befriend with u cause u are good looking. cause u are the most thick skin guy in this freaking world.

2. Associate you with a song / movie.
zi lian; king kong (cause i watch with you. muhahahaha)

3. Tell a random fact about you.
you are getting more bitchy and more FLIRT lar.

4. Tell a first memory about you.
ur height.

5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
horny sparky and durian. the geylang trip XD

6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
when can u ever dont di siao me?

7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ/blog.
.......... u forced me to blog it. nbcb!

&the beauty.

3:36 PM

photo photo and photo.

being really vain in NYP.

cindy, qg and zy.

my classmates. =D

oh ya, cindy is my besti in NYP.

lets seeeeeee.

uber lots of proj to do and i m starting to hate poly life. ); but uhm, have to endure lor to get a diploma cert and get a good pay job. XD

late for class again today.

sat behind qg and he touch my wounds. T_T

and give me his apple face. HAHAHA! then went south for lunch. as usual, had chicken rice or what u call it, gui peng. thn went for html classs. then struggling with my flash till lim zy come and help me with it. XD WHEEEEE. not like that stupid qingguo lor. then something really stupid happened. sj shouting that i love qinggou just because of one flash. ._. then bla bla bla. after school meet up with dearest julia and then meet up with really retard meisen. HAHAHAHA! then they went town and i went home cause today its my turn to take care of retard gucci. ):

i m lazy to blog thou i have alot more to blog.

in shory, MY LIFE IS GETTING MORE PACKED.

so busy!

&the beauty.