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Friday, February 29, 2008

10:54 PM

"No matter what you say about life, I learn every time I bleed. The truth is a stranger. Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free. To admit that I'm wrong and then change my mind. Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind.

I can't waste time so give it a moment. I realized nothings broken. No need to worry about everything I've done. Live every second like it was my last one. Don't look back got a new direction. I loved you once needed protection. You're still a part of everything I do. You're on my heart just like a tattoo"

i m still holding on but u let me go alrdy..

HELLO. XD
relax, i m not being emo.
just randomly posted this and all. [:

ok.
lets seeee.
1) i wana watch two faces of my gf.
2) i m going to dye my hair real SOON.
3) i wana go hk cafe eat againnnnnnn.
4) i wana see daren soon. =D
5) i wann go nightlife soonnnn. =/

i hate reality.

&the beauty.

10:36 PM

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會發現你會訝異
你是我最壓抑最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸你會流淚
只要你能聽到我看到我的全心全意

HELLO.

hasnt been meeting darling wang zhii for long long time. ]:

not in a good mooood.

why?

oh, cause my mind told me so.

ESTHER LOVE RIBENA. XD

ESTHER LOVE FISH. XD

vitamins food. [:

&the beauty.

11:45 PM

since i m getting no where in life, then i think i shld start to love myself more. xD so if u ever notice, i added a new pic of myself inside this wonderful blog. so as to remind to love myself more. cause i realise i have been abusing myself recently. ]: mental abuse is the worst. followed by self-abuse. but i nv self-abuse. i must be really insane if i do that. C-R-A-Z-Y.

sigh. why is it so hard to control emotions? think i will bear to leave BCS. cause i m quitting like 10march. i will miss li jin, gladys, jacq and the cute guy. ]: but i wana quit cause i dont like the workload there.

one more time.
just let me be drunk for one more time.
just let me slack thru the night for one more time.
just let me see you for the last 5sec.
just let me feel you for the last 5 sec.
and i promise to forget you.

i m feeling guilty. ]:

been avoiding daddy recently.

slp as soon as possible when he reached home.

reason; cause i dont want be a passive smoker!

&the beauty.

3:20 PM

drew looks at me, i fake a smile so he wont see.........

你能否收回你说你根本不会喜欢我?

&the beauty.

10:45 PM

damn. this song making me so emo. HAHAHA! thanks ah, to the one who send me this prefect song. T-H-A-N-K-S. XD

teardrop on my guitar.

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

finally have afternoon nap after so long. XD

i will learn to grow up one day,

and mmaeuyekbmienco.

p.s: you would think i m childish if u manage to solve the riddle.

&the beauty.

11:10 AM

yes, i m back. XD wanted to be back on 29feb2008 but cant wait. and to why 29feb, some should know why. i really love 29feb and i wonder why.. HEHEHEHE. no, not because of anyone tt i love this date but because...... its for u to find out your own! =p and 29feb is NEXT FRIIDAY. XD ultra hiigh. and i wana seee my Guess? watch at 12mm jump from 29feb to 1march. horray to 29feb`08. IITS MY DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

i m exhuasted. exhuasted by all the slacking. late night reaching home and all. i m hectic cause i need to build up my relationship with gfs. not because of "om3". for the past one week, been waking up at 7am and reaching home at ard 11pm. yawn! i m tired.. seriously tired..

i fall in love with hk cafe. the first time i went there was 8aug`07. to celebrate melvan`s bday. the second time i went there was 20feb to slack. HEHEHE! which was daren`s bday. when will be the third time i will be eating there? hpe soon. XDDD

and daren chan! meet me soon leh. pass u your bday which will make u hiigh as its from house of condom. XD p.s dont hiigh in front of me, thanks!

&the beauty.

12:41 PM

blog will be closed down for the moment. =D
Esther will be busy with her hectic life for now.
but fear not, she will be back soon.

XOXOXOXOXO.

&the beauty.

11:00 AM

i am addicted to movies but money restricted me to it. ]: SO MEAN OF IT RIGHT? but anyway, catch sweedey todd on 13feb2008 with gfs. it was awesome. and the movie ticket costs $7 only. HEHEHEHEHEHE! i thought tt it would cost more than that but no. thus, i m happpy. brought popcorn and nachos in and sat beside lj. :D i m falling in love with her. GEEEEZ. watch till 11plus and catch the last train home. cab fare would cost a bomb! thn home sweet home.

i m loving my new job more. :D

and will post v day details prolly on my next post cause havent upload pictures into the comp yet. :D

sigh.

i knw why m i feeling emo.

i need a friend. ]:

a friend who is deaf so i can telll it my problem without feeling stress.

"whistle and i will come"

its no longer sweet anymore.

everyone is using it.

ITS NO LONGER SWEEET.

&the beauty.

5:54 PM

GONG XI AH GONG XI. today pon work cause not feeling that well. ._. so went to hougang and find Doctor tan to cure my illness. HEEHEEE. and doctor tan is such an ass. he told me his "clinic" is near monfront sec but i dont thnk so. so from 682 walk to 502. OMG!!! but fear not, thy are just a street away from each other. :D

okok. lets see pictures! XD

my aii xiin porridge make by doctor Tan. <:

do i have tt sick face? o.O!

another aii xiin sweet corn.

HEHEHE. scandal or real?

xing fu de wei dao.

heart shape.

couple hat. XD

edit by doctor Tan due to some personal reason.

MSN CRAZY TIME WITH AZI.

hahahaha! so funnnnny lah. video call are so fun. :P okok. off to dinnnner and home sweet home.

P.S: hougang are really far leh!!!

&the beauty.

11:49 PM

went back paragon guess? on sunday. [: and i missss paragon guess so much! can feeeel the sadness once again. awww! and sad to say, it seems like zak tan and i got nothing much to talk about. talk to rizal the most. teeheehee! hes so funnnnnnnnnnnny. sohpia said i m grow slimmer and prettier. :D (^O^) but heard tt rizal working till end of this month and hes quitting! ]: and i still love paragon guess? alot. <3

went BCS work today. :D wah. li jin`s friend, gladys, say i pretty. HEHEHEHEHEHEHE! thn went amk hub with lj, julia and qm. wanted to watch movie but 1015pm then start so we abandon that thinking. thn told lj i wana buy bread for gladys thn lj was like, walao. just because she say you pretty. thn lj and qm went home while i and julia went slack at the playground there. chat about alot of things. like ite, poly, secondary school and all. browse thru julia`s hp pictures. indeed brings back ultra loads of memories. slack til ard 10plus thn took bus home.

AHHHH! AND I SAW EDISON CHEN`s PORN PHOTOS.
and it was G-R-O-S-S.
totally turn off. >: no, not because it small or what but i think porn are disgusting.
was forcing myself to scroll down somemore til i think its so wrong to watch porn tt i quickly close the whole window.
and i m a good girl afterall. =D
and Edison Chen is stillll so handsome.

julia going HK soon. ]: told her to bring back HK`s air for me. sigh. tt was my dream lah! to go HK and bring HK`s air back my own. why aint i born rich? fuck it.

&the beauty.

10:43 PM

请快准备行李

丢掉用不到的伤心旧回忆

脑海中相本日记

从此更新

只有彼此专属甜蜜

dono why m i feeling this way either.

you make me feel so free out of a sudden.

thanks for that sms anyway. XD

and i know..

you wont be there anymore.

uhm, and so m i.

依恋就让它依恋

已经拥有过你一段时间

&the beauty.

11:25 PM

C stand for clinic.
MOS stand for mos burger or ministry of sound?

went clinic and mos with sis after grandma`s hse. clinic was coooooool due to thoe cooool wheelchair. ^O^ mos was alright cause didnt manage to squeeze into that "cage" and didnt dare to dance in the members` area. -__- but i believe going mos with friends would be fun! =D admission to mos was FOC and so was those drinks. okok. let the pics do those talking. typing is boring!

ker, win and me. HEHEHE! before heading to grandma`s house.

win and me.

ker, bob and me. oh, you cant imagine hw much i love bob. XD

win and me acting retard. LOL! the wheel chair was fun. :D

ker and me.

-_____-

me, win and suzane at mos.

ker, me, win and suzanne at mos.

my favourite food of all for reunion dinner. XD was cook by my daddddy. mircale~

went di lian po`s house today. shes a great cook! i love her cooking A-L-O-T. so can imagine how much i eat eh.. ker and win went off first leaving me alone with daddy. >: but tt give some aunties the impression tt i`m a super good daughter. :D then cab home with daddy. as usual, he alight at the coffeeshop there. -__- drunk alrdy still wana drink. then ask me to give him a call when i reach home. treating me like a small kid! i m 18 years old alrdy! (><)!

cant wait for 14feb. :D

my date with _____.

you guys will know it on the feb15!

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ciao. XD

&the beauty.

10:06 PM

lets seeeeeeeeeeeee.

i m getttting more and more shag. everyday so busy. ]: and i wana quit the admin job soon. so stress ah! somemore i type so slow. although got li jin but i still think i cant make it lor. >: win say the pay aint gooooood toooo. hehe! but think i quitting end of feb so have to endure! a few more times only lah! think of the $_$, esther liang! anyway, take one step at one time. then getting use to Guesss watch too. =D anyway, life is like that. time passes so fast tt i dun have time to breathe.

my hair before going far east to trim. i actually put wax on it and style it but the wind destroyed it! sooooo frustrateddddd. goonnna put my new hair on blog soon thou it make not much difference. and my dull black eyes. zzz. HAHAHAHAHA! and jia hui, stop stalking my blog and friendster. you pon ten king + horny ass + slacker.

and CNY coming soon. ang paos time. i wanted to use my ang paos` money to buy keith but keith said "he cant be buy, have to jio. (-.-) jio means woo-ing and this concepts sucks. where got a girl jio a guy unless shes utterly desperate." him and his weird logic. but anyway, he`s nice. :D WHOPS! whats happening to me? -.- he stil suck big time. =p

esther wanaaaa faster buy laptop and play GB. i misss GB so much. i m a GB freak. <:

and anyway! everyone is saying about edison porn`s photo lah! making me wana see toooo. =X i mean, edison is sooooo handsomeee lah! i think i can die with no regret if i get to see it. LOL! just like daren wana seeee jessica alba`s naked. (-.-)

okok. bye! ciao.

&the beauty.

11:16 AM

当秋天再来的时候

你要我笑着去爱去拥有

就算是再短暂的温柔

能重逢这仁慈已足够

可知道有些事有些人

停留在发生的那天不肯走

看时光的残酷

舍不得被遗忘

这命运我很满足有你陪伴的幸福

为你打开时间的锁让爱自由不被它束缚

是哭过也挣扎过心让痛辗过

等那一天落叶静静飘眼前

已不再伤悲永

恒终于相信了幸福的瞬间

为你打开时间的锁让爱自由不被它束缚

每一秒都不后悔我陪你体会

过去未来轻轻重叠

请原谅甜甜的眼泪

感谢今生有与在幸福的瞬间依偎

Leo and Yixuan thought mircale will happen but it didnt!

Yixuan stil die in the end, leaving Leo alone.

will they chose to be tgt even knowing the ending?

02/02/08
uhm, had haircut ytd.
my hair look neater now. :D
went to NYDC slack.
oh, it suck big time there.
the bake rice taste so Y-U-C-K-Y.
then brought a pink mango wallet and black normal mango tee!
wanted the white mango skinny but uhm, ker say it gonna expand big time.
well, don really believe but uhm, still didnt buy cause i scare i gonna regret big time.
lol! thn home sweet home after that.

esther wana get a white skinnnnnnnnnnny sooon!

30/01/08
went pasir ris park with eugene, qm and julia. XD
was soooooo relaxing can.
the wind blow away all my worries and sadness.
then went swensen for dinner.
and BBQ half chicken aint nice at all.
Y-U-C-K!
why have i been eating those crap food recently?

31/01/08
meet up with xing after work. accompany her to eat mac and on the way emo. hehe! she say i m so drama lah! -__- cause i kp saying, "ai ren jie hun le, dan shi xing niang bu shi wo" thn give tt emo face. then text "wish you a happppy marriage. XD congratulation" to Arron and he replied, "thank U very very much. god bless." thn went took mrt home with xing. think she wana cry when she say about ___ thn i ka jiao her then she smile back. but dono when i alight and left her alone, did she emo anot.. LOL! then super funny lor. told xing i dun wan to hear ___`s name cause she kp talking about him. then she say "na ge dong xi" instead. -__- bai gei ta ahh. then i alight at khatib and buy bob`s food and went home slp.

ciao.

&the beauty.

12:54 AM

lets seeeeee.

Arron is getting marry offically on 1feb. (tts kind off hurting eh..... :<)

and i dun feel like blogging anymore.

wo hen bu kaii xiin.

): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

&the beauty.