triple sigh.

firstly, i m down with fever. and hopefully there isnt any red dot appearing on my arms, leg and body. (: if not, i would have to make a trip to TAN TOCK SENG HOSPITAL again. which is so lifeless. and having those sharp lil` small needle to be poke into my vein once again. the thoughts of it turn me off. the worst thing is that I STILL HAVE TO PAY MONEY to have the bloody blood test.

secondly, i lost my digital camera at home. keyword is at home. but yet, it still missing in action. i m dead. win, shan and mum will definitely kill me. pls, digital camera not cheap and theres memorable pictures inside which mum wanted to print it out. (btw, the pictures was like 2 years ago pictures) and anyway, i doesnt have the money to buy back for them also! i m like so poor. hope that the digital camera will appear in front of me. -praying.

eventually, my msn is down wid some kuku virus. -sian1/2 thanks to those who send me. ):

have been having deep thoughts recently. partly because of XX. i think that XX is so ultra amazing as XX is able to let me keep quiet for a long period of time. i m not trying to say i m talkative or what also! "i will treat you like how you treat me" this sentence is so familiar isn't it? but i don`t agree with this sentence. i wouldn't treat ppl the way they treat me even if they treated me badly. no, not that i m kind(none will agree wid tis!) but just that i doesn't have the ability to. but through XX, i realise that god is somehow kind to me. 2 peoples really touch my heart. as in, i dont know if they are real of fake, but somehow what they said to me, really touch my heart. where can we ever find this kind of thing in this aloof world anymore? XX reveal the true colours of so many people. but i really dislike XX now. XX thinks that i am invisible. ok fine, i dun really give a damn. and pls, i m pretty sure that i will cope well even without you. YOU ARE NOT EVERYTHING TO ME. your indirect way of talking really suck. i wish i can lodge a complain against you. i dun give me damn about how you think of me either. wait, i m invisible so you dun even know my existence. but be glad that you really manage to hurt me. and maybe this is your aim since the start of dunno when. i m not going to say things like i will prove you wrong or what. i know my limit but however, i will try my best. time will tell everything. at the end of the day, i will still thanks you for the effort you put into me.

no fireworks for me.

booos.

i m your friend. u are my friend. i cant be that selfish. i wish that i could return to the past and stop everything. you are so happy now yet so many others wreck. i m so mean to be awaiting for that day. no, not that i like you. but we are good friend. so i wish that we could hang out together more often just like last time. not like now. but afterall, you are really happy. are you?

BYE!